L Plates

What is this you may ask.

"L, for LOSER?"

Yes yes its L for loser, as in YOU

No it stands for learner, and that is what I am at the moment

Learning to driving is not hard,

getting used to how people are on the road is the hard thing.

Or it could be the nerves.

I recently went for my logbook test

well first time I failed

But second time lucky!

Second time I was not nervous, this was maybe the reason why I passed.

"Bruum Bruuumm"

Ever thought life could have L plates?

Just so you could let people know your only learning this stuff,

so give me a break?

I wish I could have had that.

Just to let people know yeah sorry but I have no idea what is going on.

I'm new at all this life stuff, don't yell at me.

Learning to drive, you have to learn from your mistakes, just like life.

To learn in life you have to make mistake then,

pick yourself up and learn from it.

But with parents these days who controls every aspect of a adolescent life

How on earth are we meant to learn if there is no way we can make mistakes?

Don't drink alcohol,

Why?

It's bad.

Why should we take our parents word?

Try it for yourself, then see how it is.

Learn from your own stupid choices.

Don't let other people learn for you.

But don't forget that some mistake you may never be able to learn from.

" 'Cause your dead!"

Well that wasn't lightly put was it?

But that's the general idea.

Don't put yourself in a situation where death is a likely consequence.

Think about what your doing don't be reckless.

Today was great, my family now officially have a new pet

His name is MJ, he is a guinea pig
And he's so handsome!

Have an

Indise out

Upside down

Diagonally spun

Night!

xx

"Dont bite the hand that feeds you"

Making Amends.

Isn't he yummy?

I think so!

Jared Leto is the hotter less famous Brad Pitt

HA HA. I love him and 30 Seconds To Mars!

"Keep it in your pants."

Recently I've had an epiphany.

"A WHAT? Are you on drugs? Who taught you to say that? I will kill them"

I don't want to die hating people who deserve another chance.

Or tried really hard to get forgiveness.

"You don't deserve forgiveness

You don't deserve anyone to forget what you did

You don't deserve to smile after what happened

You don't deserve happiness.

But neither do I.

So who am I to keep them away from you?"

There is a girl I mention in a recent blog.

That I have become acquaintances with again.

She told me how sorry she was, how she wishes she could take it all back.

She was hurting and still was.

Who am I to prolong this hurt and pain?

So I got off my high horse and I "Forgave and Forgot."

I don't usually do it.

But I will start.

I also told that boy, I'm not angry anymore.

So he feels he doesn't have that weight on his shoulders

Even though he didn't reply..

Arse..

But from now on I want to mend those relationships that deserve to mended.

If they have a good reason, or are genuinely sorry

Then I guess they deserve forgiveness

An excuse like I don't want him to be happier with you than me

Is a shit and selfish excuse truthfully.

Where did you pull that out of? Your arse.

Because it sounds like utter shit.

I will forgive those who tried and they were hurt.

I will even try to become good mates again.

But like I said a broken vase just isn't the same.

"Here we go about the damn vase again"

Oh shut up you.

I just mentioned it.

I got some encouraging words from a friend:

"If you want to go out with a dickhead I will back you the whole way but if he hurts you I will kill him"

Best advice along side:

"If you do it again your arse is grass"

That made me laugh

Genius she is for coming up with that, it's direct and straight to the point.

No fluffing about. LOVE IT

I'm thinking of writing a story

A werewolf, falling for a vampire

And no the vampires to not sparkle in sunlight.

They will be the classic vampires, the ones that burn!

I will be in the werewolf's point of view.

There will be an epic fight scene too where they both try to kill each other because its written in there DNA to.

Mortal enemies..

Like the Japanese and whales

Like cats and dogs

Ponder this:

If we all die in the end why do we live?

And try skipping when your angry, are you angry afterwards??

Have an

Inside out

Upside Down

Diagonally spun

Night/day

"Dont pee in pools some go purple"

Meant to be Bestfriends, Sorries, Goodbyes, Fuck ups, Bitches.

It has come to an end of Yr 11 feels like yesterday I just started yr 11
how fast it has gone
"Wow end of yr 11 and you still have the brain of a dead fish..."
Yes thank you for that insight..you're such a whore.

Well I've had a few adventures this year.
But I seem to only remember the bad..
Guess that's saying something

Well in short it started of pretty great.

I had my eyes on this awesome guy..
He was my world.
We had known each other for YEARS
About a 4th way through the year
Finally the 6 words I've wanted to come out of his mouth did.
Even if it was by text.
It still counted better than nothing.

Then she came.

This person when we first met was amazing
She was someone I could tell anything.
I would pour my heart out to her.
All the time. I thought she cared
Well i was proved wrong in so many ways.
This girl was my best friend,well meant to be
Then she started the flirting.
Guess who it was with.
Yeah my boyfriend.

Fuck.

At first it was just some mate having some fun.
They were pretty good mates so I let it slide.
Then came the cuddles.
I still let that go.
Then one action turned it upside down..

I was waiting for him to come to school.
I'd been missing him so much.
He finally made it.
Walking towards me like a God that just saved a life.
Little did I know he was about to plunge mine into eternal damnation.

He saw me as he was about to walk to me
Something catches his eye.
It was her
He walks off in the other direction smiling like he was in love.
That pushed me off the edge.

Few days later
I confronted him "Do you like her?"
"I dunno" is what he said.
I so wished it was something so much more assuring but it was I dunno
I told him we need to go on a break to sort things out
Then we went our separate ways.

I was breaking inside I just let the love of my life walk out.
Then being the coward he was.
He texted me after school,
Told me we shouldn't go out anymore.
Then said he loved me.
I thought it was so unfair
How can you break up with someone then tell them you love them.
I started to blame myself. But my friends showed me the light it wasn't me
It was them.
Both of them.
But, I let it go after a week of crying and ice cream

I was starting to get over it all.
We were still mates at that point.
Then I went to go and see my best friend.
I found out after me and my boyfriend broke up
She broke up with hers.
I wondered why and well I found out.

My other friend came up to me
She looked worried.
I asked her whats up?
She replied "Are you angry at her for going out with him?"
"Who's him and her? Are you mental?"
Well my ex and best friend.
Gawd

Thats when my whole word came crashing down.
I felt my heart rip in a million shreds
I was numb after that.
I had no emotions that day.
I went on with the day as if nothing mattered.
I wanted that day to be over.

When it was I crawled up in my bed
I cried for weeks everynight
Having to see my those two flirting, holding hands.
I had to face the fact, the two people I loved with my entire heart
Turned around and ripped it out of my chest and legged it.

Thats was the worst moment of the year so far..
Then came the girl wish never came.
I dont like to elaborate on this.
But i had an univited guest.
She came she left and fucked up everything.

This was the cause of one of the worst fights in my life.
I almost died.
It started off with me and a best friend talking about breaking trust.
We broke each others.
And well then things turned upside down.

We fought told each other we didnt care..
That's the short verson.
I was not good.
It was so upsetting.
We figured it out we said our sorries.
I wish I was back the way it used to be..
I really do
But theres still that feeling in the back of your head
That still thinks about those things that were said.

I could go on forever about the bad but onto some good.
I've realised I have rekindled a flame that I used to have for this guy.
I liked ages ago.
When he first came to geraldton
But he told me he wants to be mates.
So I let that fly away

But ever scince one road trip.
I cant stop thinking.
He's always there wandering in my mind
Best days are when you go to the beach and he takes off his shirt.
And wow I think it became clear to alot of people that I like him

Gosh it wasnt obvious haha
Well I got my cuddle

But
He just wants to be friend he told me.
I'm not hurt by this.
I will move on.
I'm just glad he's my friend and nothing less...

This was or is 2009..
Hope there are more adventures to come


Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally Spun
Day!!!

"You need to lighten up im getting headaches listening to this crap"
"Catchya Bruh"

Vampire Diaries & Just Exes?

Stefan, Elana, Damon

I recently discovered another American TV show. And yes VAMPIRES is the similarity.

This one is more like a vampire Gossip Girl.

And less fleshyness

Its the SEX

"Yes I must say I do agree"

Because everyone cares..

Today in homeroom I heard the most ABSURD thing in history..

Well MY history

My friend told me one of her friends went out with EX boyfriend.

They had kinda recently broken up.

Then I heard this comment:

"It was JUST her ex"

Wow.

I think this is the one think that enraged me for the entire day.

That and my stubborn teacher.

"Damn teachers. My techer is a cow. Literally"
Right..

Yes well I think it was a load of bull shit.
I'm sure there is one guy/girl may it be an ex or past crush.
That still has your heart.
It'd crush you if you saw them kissing someone else.

It'd be alright if you knew you friend had gotten over him/her
Maybe gotten another boy/girlfriend
But if you never asked?

I've been in this situation. I told my "friend" that said the just exes thing.
See how much she cares?
Should've just told me.
Its JUST your ex.
May aswell have told me to shut up and get over it.
Such a friend you are.

Exes are not just exes.
They maybe 1st loves,
1st kisses
1st time
Or
The best Ex you ever had.
So no exes aren't just exes.

The few who read this blog.
Whatch what you say.
Do be an ignorant bitch and say stuff others are.
Think how it may affect your friends.

Have an

Inside out

Upside down

Diagonally spun

Night!

xxxx

"Go on a diet, you need to die then eat T"

Sick and Tired

Decided not to give a fuck
"Wow that's bold huh"
It's time to tell everyone to get a life.
People pretend to care
Then forget it all the next day
They don't give a shit about you.

I used to think I had real friends
But I don't
They don't give a fuck
They pretend to be your Best friend when you see them.
Then forget about you when they go home.
Or other way around
When you see them they don't care
But when they talk you its like your best mates

Its weird how people act isn't it?
"Yes it is dear friend"
Dear friend? EW


Today's topic is.
I have no idea.

Um. Lets talk about
Internets pictures!

WHO THE HELL PUSHES UP THERE BOOBS THEN TAKES PICS OF THEM?
"OO OO I KNOW Pick me!!"
It was a rhetorical question.....

But anyway
*Cough*Slut*Cough*
There are a few pics out there that are the most sluttiest on the earth.
Women wearing mankinis?
Women wearing shirts that show mountains of cleavage?
What are you desperate?

Please grow up
Learn some self respect
PLEASE
For my sanity's sake

"And mine"
I don't think anyone cares about YOUR sanity.
You lost it a while ago!

Have an

Inside out

Upside down

Diagonally spun

Night!!!!!!!!

"When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep --- not screaming, like the passengers in his car. "

When life isn't right

Haven't written in a while.

I've been a bit busy!

"No you've been lazy!"
Anyway today before a test i was told some pretty depressing news.

Yeah it hurt.

But I've decided to leave it all behind

And drink my sorrows away tomorrow =]

"If you get a hangover I'm pulling out the pots and pans!"

I've recently discovered.

No

Watched two DVD's about

DANNY BHOY!!

Danny is a comedian and a fairly great on that that!

"Why do you have to kick me out?

Because your Drunk

Well you wouldn't kick me out of a restaurant if I were full!"

Yeah i agree good shit!

Today's topic:

Shoes

CONVERSE

Are they not just the most beautiful shoe?

I think so

"I second that!"

Shut up no one cares about you.

I have 3 pairs

and I love them more than my own hands

There is a million different converse.

The one and only Chuck Taylor made converse

Thanks god for him

If there were no converse I'd cry

I've decided to leave it short tonight.

I'm somewhat tired and need sleep.

"I'M NOT TIRED!"

Well I am and what I say goes!!

I'll leave you with this:

(From Danny Bhoy's DVD)

I walked out of my house with a big box of empty beer bottles

At the same time i opened the door

A minister was standing there.

He asked me if i was coming to church

I said "No father, I'm hungover"

"Oh ok then" He said

Before the left he said "Son in the long run Religion will be better for you than beer"

So I said "Yes but I cant prove the existence of beer and I don't have to wait 2000 years for my next beer!"

Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally spun
Night!!

"Remember if your parents never had children, chances are you won't either!"

Oh you idiot.............

ANYWAY!!!!!!!!

GOODNIGHT!

The Issue

I'm writing a story about Jack the Ripper
"ah yes Jack the RIPPER!!! Rawr."
It's for an assessment.
I never really knew what he was like or what he did.
All I did know was that he was never caught.
Then I found out how bad he was and why he was so "famous."
Jack the Ripper was a bad bad man.
He slit women's throats and gutted most of them
It was horrendous
I'm glad it was 200 years ago and he is surely dead.
"Even I think that's bad."

Anyways
I've figured out something if you care enogh for someone you have to be ready to lose it.
Maybe more than once.
Theres this person
Lets call them Bruce
"Is that my best friend?"
NO

Well I met Bruce 3 years ago
Bruce was the best looking kid out
He didn't know it.
But i did.
He was one of those people you can relate to very quickly
I fell for Bruce 3 years ago.
But I lost the fight for him

3 or less years later I found out the person who went out with Bruce for a year or so,
Hurt Bruce pretty bad
She wasn't be sure about her feelings and she cracked that shell
And then she changed her mind

So I thought I'd step in.
"Nosey bitch"
Help out a little
I knew what it's like to be hurt
We had an existing friendship so i thought I'd be good for him to talk to a familiar face
It was instant reconnection
I got to know Bruce better
We got closer
And closer
It was great

Then his ex came back.
She wanted him back even though she couldn't keep it in her pants
I was beginning to lose him.
I couldn't fight a against a tidal wave
I was only a small boat

Cracks appeared in my hull
I started to fail.
But I hold on
Hoping wishing one day Bruce will save me from my imminent death
To pull me from the painful and slow death

He says he doesn't know anymore
He's not sure of anything anymore.
But because of her he might die of loneliness before he will trust anyone ever again

Don't rush into love.
It will leave others heartbroken
Think it through
Are those feelings real?
So..


A note to all those out there:

Be sure about your feelings because if you crack that shell, and you change your mind, they'll die of loneliness before they'll trust anyone ever again.
- Bones, Season 5 Episode 1

"And remember to eat lots don't get fat, love chickens! And keep your nose clean!"

What?
I think your nuts.
ANYWAY......

Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally spun night!

xx

Exchange Students & True Blood

True Blood

It is a TV series in America and I'm
loving it

It has a few boob shots and all that

But.

I skip over them

And still love it

Definition:
exchange: substituting one thing for another
student: a person formally engaged in learning
"You just HAD to made references to a dictionary.. FREAK"

I can't say that's I've liked exchange students.
"Wow that's nice"
Not the actually people but the concept.
I think they should stay forever
It's hard to say goodbye and I'll see you next holidays
But it's even harder to say goodbye when you may not see them again in months or even years

I met Jill Alcorn 2008
"She was a babe!"
I was asked to show her around as she was in my homeroom
It was funny thing how easy it was to talk to her
She was amazingly social
I had a whole year to get to know her better and that I did.
I learnt she's from Peace River and she plays volleyball at home
Canadians go to school like the Americans and have a long summer vacation
She parties like Aussies
And its snows in Canada
And it's yuck at sometimes of the year
But at other the grass is as green as green can be
She left on the last day of school.
Tears flooded from many eyes that day.
She was mean to be here forever to be one of us
But we knew it was inevitable, she would leave sometime soon.
I remember the last time I said goodbye.
I'd rather I didn't remember truthfully.
But it was a sad sad day..
I didn't like it at all.
But we still talk and keep in touch.
One day I will come and visit her
"Tears...."


This year, 2009 I met another exchange student.
Her name is Noora Andell
Straight away we were mates
She comes from Finland
And teaches us math's kids finish and also some of the words we shouldn't say
"Yes you use them on me but I don't get it"
She is one of a kind
A beautiful one of a kind
I help her understand our wordy maths questions and she teaches me how to speak Finnish
Properly that is
Noora is staying until the middle of next year
And then she too leaves.
It will be a time of sadness
But for her joy
She gets to see her parents again
And all the friends she misses
I hope to keep in touch with her
She makes maths worth it!


Ive come to realise maybe it isn't to bad that they leave.
It just keeps us strongly bonded.
Just over a Large distance


Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally spun
Day and night!!

"If your looking for sympathy it's in the dictionary between Shit and Syphilis"

Best Friends

Okay well I wouldn't call then best friends.
"Then why'd you name it best friends?"
I'd call them non blood sisters
"What the fu**?"
Yeah thats the words.

So this stage in my life I have 4 non blood sisters thats care about me and show me they do everyday.
One. C. Leticia Farrell
"Is that even how you spell it? such a friend you are.."
Two. S. Jessica Brady
Three. K. Mae Sturm
Four. J. Caitlin Newton

There names are being kind of protected.

Then there's the friends I couldn't live with out.
I can make a list thats metres and metres long but I've decided not to I don't want to forget anyone.
People know who they are anyway

But todays about those 4 who make life easier
When I'm feeling down I can count on then for a steady hand
Bored? they are only a text away.
It's wonderful how 4 people can be so amazing.

One.
We met in school in yr 9 I'm sure.
We were sat next to each other in science.
And that's where it all started
Yelling at that shit head behind us.
Ahh what great fun.
Theres never a dull moment with her
Even though she's in love with a ranga.....
"Oh ew, i know that is a low light."

Two.
This kid is one of a kind.
Even though she's been through a whole lot
She still has the courage to put on a smile and carry on with the day
It doesn't matter when we met.
The main part is that we did.
She's one of the people that you'd help and feel good about doing so.
She's the type of person who genuinely cares.

Three.
Its been 13 years since I first saw this kid.
She was my first friend in Kindy and all the way through primary school.
I was taught by this chap how to spell this one word I'd always had trouble with.
It's was amazing the things she taught me.
Now it seems that i teach her more.
"You couldn't teach a cow....."

Four.
My aquaintance.
The other nerd.
This chap is a different one.
She has a bordanian accent
And she's a four eye's
She's the one I turn to for help on school work.
She's in majority of my classes and is a helping hand
I never knew someone like her exsited.

If I lived forever I would write a bit for all of my beloved.
But I don't live forever and I do need sleep.
And i do have test's and amazingly I'm still in school
"Yes you only need half a brain to be in school"
But I want to say all those who looked after me
Or just gave a shit.
I thank you from the deepest of my heart..

And I must say that I do love you..
So very much

For now I bid you adue.

Have a
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally spun night and day!

xxxx

"Don't forget to brush your teeth!!!!"


Special mention to those in Mr. Camerons Yr 11 english class '09
I appreciate you and your company you inspire me to write.

Broken

Trying to fix what is broken is frustrating.
"Yes when your you.."
Ahem..and you've fixed it alright but,
It's just not the same?
Like when a vase falls off the table
"Cause you pushed it off"
I didn't do that ok!
and you glue it back.
Sometimes if it was only a small crack it goes unnoticed.
But some times it big, no huge.
And you can still see the small tiny crack with the glue in it..


It's the same with friendships
If they go through some hard ships and you have a small fight
it can be fixed with the right type and amount of 'glue'
"You can't fix friendships with glue. Whats wrong with you?"
i was using a metaphor... Gosh

But sometimes there is the time when the break is big.
"Oooo how big?"
Um big!
"Ahhhh"
You got into a big fight.
Or they betrayed your trust
And did something BAD
The break can be fixed but it's still not the same
Those crack are still visible.
It's not the same

But
"ANOTHER BUT?!?!?"
Yes so get over it!

But, then theres those huge breaks.
They are unsavable
"Is that even a word?"
You almost hated them for what they did.
Couldn't believe it would happen to you.
It only happens on TV you would think.

But nope.
It happens in real life too.
Your life.
"If you have one"
To be a good sport you become friend with them.
You feel as if something is missing in the world without them
But it's not the same.
Your friendship has be shattered.
And there are bits missing
They can't be found.

Sometimes the other person tries to fix it.
But a simple fake smile and a try hug won't cut it.
To yell at someone and be angry at them for something your not sure they did
Isn't right.
It can't be fixed with clag glue.
"Ooo that taste good"
Its too simple.

It maybe time to let go of all those visible cracks.
And let be what is.
The vase is broken and maybe thats what its mean to be?
Let go of those who don't really deserve to be your friend.
Or who have done something that you regret forgiving them for.

Think on it

So from you favourite blogger
Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally spun
Night!


"Hahahaha have bad dreams MUWHAHA"
Oh shut up you slag.

xxx

Supposed Friends

Ever had a friend
"Der everyones had a friend just not you"
Shuddup....
That was your bestest buddy ever for a few days..
Maybe a few weeks
Or months

But then all of a sudden dropped of the face of the earth?
"No one can drop off you idiot they have to fly off using a freaking space ship!!!"
........................
Didn't bother talking to you any more.
No return text messages or IM's

Yeah?

Well
They werent friends
They were posers.
Just seeing if you were good enough for them.
They figured you wern't
"Or its just you and your idiotic brain"
And dropped you.
Not another smile or look no more.

Or maybe you had a friend
That turned into a best friend.
"Ooo! i had a best friend his name was Bruce and he's still my best friend and "
SHUDDUP!!!!!!!
"Grrrr"

And one day took everything away from you.
Everyone you love decided they were a better replacement
"This is deep man"
Your old friends didnt talk to you the same.
They took them away

One day you find someone who made those worries go away.
It was amazing
You didnt care that they were the new you.
Thats someone made life so much better!

Then that day came.
They took that amazing someone away too.
You couldn't believe it.

Well they turned out the be such a great friend didn't they?
They were a backstabing bitch/bastard

Heres an idea
"Go die?"
No...
"Go eat?"
No......
"Go drink iced coffee?"
NO NO NO NO NO NO
And no to any other stupid idea you will have.
"Fine then, don't accept my ideas!!!!"

Becareful who you let in
Dont accept them into your life straight away.
Give it lots of time.
Figure them out.

On a lighter note:
Michael Jacksons new single is hot

It is so very very much

His movie shall go down in history as the very best

We love you MJ

Until Tomorrow!!
Have a
Inside Out
Upside Down
Diagonally Spun
Day and night!!!!!!!!!
"Get a life"

Peachy?

Ever tried to write an essay..
But have no motivation?
Thats what im seeming to do this week,
"Lame huh?"
Yes i realised that when i started idiot

My mother said I'm lazy..
"You are a lazy shit"
Yes thank you for that insight.
But i just haven't got the oomph i need.
"Who the hell says oomph?"
Aw shuddup!!

Well I'm not lazy
"Bull your not"
I'm just motivationally challanged..
I am really..
Help?