It has come to an end of Yr 11 feels like yesterday I just started yr 11
how fast it has gone
"Wow end of yr 11 and you still have the brain of a dead fish..."
Yes thank you for that insight..you're such a whore.
Well I've had a few adventures this year.
But I seem to only remember the bad..
Guess that's saying something
Well in short it started of pretty great.
I had my eyes on this awesome guy..
He was my world.
We had known each other for YEARS
About a 4th way through the year
Finally the 6 words I've wanted to come out of his mouth did.
Even if it was by text.
It still counted better than nothing.
Then she came.
This person when we first met was amazing
She was someone I could tell anything.
I would pour my heart out to her.
All the time. I thought she cared
Well i was proved wrong in so many ways.
This girl was my best friend,well meant to be
Then she started the flirting.
Guess who it was with.
Yeah my boyfriend.
Fuck.
At first it was just some mate having some fun.
They were pretty good mates so I let it slide.
Then came the cuddles.
I still let that go.
Then one action turned it upside down..
I was waiting for him to come to school.
I'd been missing him so much.
He finally made it.
Walking towards me like a God that just saved a life.
Little did I know he was about to plunge mine into eternal damnation.
He saw me as he was about to walk to me
Something catches his eye.
It was her
He walks off in the other direction smiling like he was in love.
That pushed me off the edge.
Few days later
I confronted him "Do you like her?"
"I dunno" is what he said.
I so wished it was something so much more assuring but it was I dunno
I told him we need to go on a break to sort things out
Then we went our separate ways.
I was breaking inside I just let the love of my life walk out.
Then being the coward he was.
He texted me after school,
Told me we shouldn't go out anymore.
Then said he loved me.
I thought it was so unfair
How can you break up with someone then tell them you love them.
I started to blame myself. But my friends showed me the light it wasn't me
It was them.
Both of them.
But, I let it go after a week of crying and ice cream
I was starting to get over it all.
We were still mates at that point.
Then I went to go and see my best friend.
I found out after me and my boyfriend broke up
She broke up with hers.
I wondered why and well I found out.
My other friend came up to me
She looked worried.
I asked her whats up?
She replied "Are you angry at her for going out with him?"
"Who's him and her? Are you mental?"
Well my ex and best friend.
Gawd
Thats when my whole word came crashing down.
I felt my heart rip in a million shreds
I was numb after that.
I had no emotions that day.
I went on with the day as if nothing mattered.
I wanted that day to be over.
When it was I crawled up in my bed
I cried for weeks everynight
Having to see my those two flirting, holding hands.
I had to face the fact, the two people I loved with my entire heart
Turned around and ripped it out of my chest and legged it.
Thats was the worst moment of the year so far..
Then came the girl wish never came.
I dont like to elaborate on this.
But i had an univited guest.
She came she left and fucked up everything.
This was the cause of one of the worst fights in my life.
I almost died.
It started off with me and a best friend talking about breaking trust.
We broke each others.
And well then things turned upside down.
We fought told each other we didnt care..
That's the short verson.
I was not good.
It was so upsetting.
We figured it out we said our sorries.
I wish I was back the way it used to be..
I really do
But theres still that feeling in the back of your head
That still thinks about those things that were said.
I could go on forever about the bad but onto some good.
I've realised I have rekindled a flame that I used to have for this guy.
I liked ages ago.
When he first came to geraldton
But he told me he wants to be mates.
So I let that fly away
But ever scince one road trip.
I cant stop thinking.
He's always there wandering in my mind
Best days are when you go to the beach and he takes off his shirt.
And wow I think it became clear to alot of people that I like him
Gosh it wasnt obvious haha
Well I got my cuddle
But
He just wants to be friend he told me.
I'm not hurt by this.
I will move on.
I'm just glad he's my friend and nothing less...
This was or is 2009..
Hope there are more adventures to come
Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally Spun
Day!!!
"You need to lighten up im getting headaches listening to this crap"
"Catchya Bruh"
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