Pretty Eyes - Alex Goot

Pretty eyes staring back at me so blue and white
The colours of the summer sky
The colours of the world
If love is blind why do I see you so clearly now?
Perfect vision of our love somehow
You take over my mind

You will NEVER know.

You don’t know the amount of tears I shed.

You don’t know how much I miss how things used to be.

You don’t know how my heart is still breaking

You don’t know the reason I’m alive is because of you.

You don’t know how hard it is to slow my heart rate when I see you.

You don’t know how hard it is to breathe without you.

You don’t know how hard it is to stop thinking about you.

You don’t know the pain you caused.

You don’t know how my heart will forever belong to you.

You don’t know I care.

All I have to say is good bye.

It would be better off that way.

But why can’t I?

Maybe its your fault maybe its mine

Either ways it’s all the fucking same

I can’t breathe.

Metaphor

'Alter ego rant time:
"Never knew you could aimlessly throw a rock into the sky and hit two birds with one rock.


Somebody seems to have done exactly this.
But what's worse is that they're getting all the blame.
And again to make it worse.
The person doing the blaming is a complete hypocrite.


So you know what,
I hear, they are happy to stay as far away as possible from both birds.
They're done getting the blame for everything and for 'ruining' their lives." '

We are all human. We all make mistakes


It's best to move on, if people no longer want you in their life,
Then Stay clear. Stay out. Move on.

Have an Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally spun night.

The Past

As today ends the memory of my little sister grows stronger.
I hope that I never lose someone so close to me again.
To go through something heartbreakingly painful.
To lose someone who mean's the world to you.
Is the very worst.
Even if I knew my sister for a limited amount of time
It still hurts to know I could have had a little sister old enough to take shopping today.
A little sister I could stand up for in High school today.
A little sister who today I could help with her homework or her everyday trouble.
Yes I do have a little sister but she is 10 not 15.
I can't do the same things for her as I will have left to start my own life.
I wish she were alive.
My Trinh you were the most perfect of all babies.
I miss you and I love you.

I can't control who leaves this life for the next, but at least I can make the best memories to hold on to if it happens.

Dear Physic's I hate you.

I was asked by my little brother today, “What’s love?”

I looked into his curious eyes and told him “Love is love, you’ll know when you’re older”

His reply “But you’re older so I’m asking you.”

For once in my life I couldn’t answer one of his question.

Through out the 9 years I’ve known him I could easily answer his question’s.

This one stumped me.

So for the last few hour’s I’ve been pondering what love it.

I used to think I knew what it was.

But now I’ve come to realise it’s not what I thought.

Love is a figment of our imagination.

It was planted into the minds of every single person

To fill a void of nothingness

And for people to have an excuse to do stupid and reckless things.

Maybe love exists but I am yet to find a definite definition 

Love makes us pursue those who wish not to be pursued

‘Love’ makes people act like idiots.

How do I know? I’ve been in ‘Love’

Rubic's

Life is like a rubic’s cube.

When it seems like your getting some where, you make one wrong move and your fucked.

OR if someone else moves it and changes where you’ve placed your colours.

You again are also fucked.

Like when someone changes your life and moves a part of your perfect set up, you’re fucked.

Life if not easy it’s like a rubic’s cube if you don’t know how to do it, you won’t get anywhere. Or if someone messed it up, you’ve got to rebuild what you’ve lost.

Secret War for Love

There are numerous battles we must face

The hardest of all I shall embrace

For you, for love, I will battle thy self

The risk of losing you is worth thy health

In my own inner battle just for you

There are several things that I must do.

I force my heart to slow right down

Though the flutter of my heart is your favourite sound.

I must plan out my every little word

So I do not sound completely absurd

I have to remember how to breathe

Before I pass out and have to leave

I must not get lost in your deep blue eyes

Being distracted, just is not wise

I watch my every step where ever we may go

The rips in my jeans I cannot resew

All these silent actions, so you will stay a while

Keeping you around just to see you smile.

Your sense of humor I can’t live without.

I love you more than I could scream and shout.

Whenever I'm with you my heart skips a beat

Because everything about you from your head to your feet.

Makes this private battle worth everything

Whenever I’m with you I just want to sing.

Everyone says you’re a drug for me

But honestly you are my vitamin C.

Forever and ever I’ll stay by your side

To be your friend, companion and guide.

Wow.

Its my..

30th  Blog Post


oh my god.
I must blog so much useless shit.
"Yes, yes you do"


Hows the hell is it number 30?
Jeepers.
"Creepers!"
Hahaha, good one.


Any way this is part of my poem I'm writing for my Yr12 English 3B course of study.
"Sounds smart huh?"
When its done I'll post it.

There are numerous battles we must face

The hardest of all I shall embrace

For you, for love, I will battle thy self

The risk of losing you is worth thy health

In my very own inner battle for you

There are several things that I must do.

I force my heart to slow right down

Though the flutter of my heart is your favourite sound.

I plan out my every single word

So I do not sound completely absurd

I have to remember how to breathe

Before I pass out and have to leave

I must not get lost in your deep blue eyes

Being distracted, just is not wise

I watch my every step where ever we may go

The rips in my jeans I cannot resewThere are numerous battles we must face

The hardest of all I shall embrace

For you, for love, I will battle thy self

The risk of losing you is worth thy health

In my very own inner battle for you

There are several things that I must do.

I force my heart to slow right down

Though the flutter of my heart is your favourite sound.

I plan out my every single word

So I do not sound completely absurd

I have to remember how to breathe

Before I pass out and have to leave

I must not get lost in your deep blue eyes

Being distracted, just is not wise

I watch my every step where ever we may go

The rips in my jeans I cannot resew

Its about why love is worth the inner battle we all go through.

It's an over exaggeration yeah yeah.

But I don't care (:

Have an 

Inside out

Upside down 

Diagonally spun day (:

Alex Skarsgard

Mmmm.

There's always that one person, 

No matter how long it's been 

Or how badly they've treated you

If they say I love you, 

You will say it back.

Letting go of someone you love will eventually hurt you like the person died, its not easy but theres no other way.

“I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t, I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.”



“I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I just I’m just tired of being tired.”

"We all fall in love with people we don't expect, in ways we don't expect, in times we do not expect and often, these people turn out to be someone they said they'll never be."

On a brighter note

MEGAN FOX

Yum (:

Do you know the differences between 

promises and memories?

We break promises

Whereas memories break us

Just because.

Just because we aren't together.

Doesn't mean,
I stop thinking about you everyday
When I see you my heart still races

Doesn't mean,
I stop dreaming of you

When you talk about other people and I seem okay
It doesn't mean, I'm not insanely jealous.

When I smile
Doesn't mean I'm happy
I wish I was still with you every single moment.

Just because we aren't together
Doesn't mean I love you any less.
My heart is still yours
You still have the key
and I don't care if you never give them back.
 As long as you know I still love you.

Love has never been defined and never will be.
We read novels about love without limitations, see movies about it on the big screen or TV, and that we can live happily ever after, but it’s not real life.
The fact of the matter is, our expectations are sometimes too high and the poor mate we choose can’t humanly live up to what our expectations are.
The word “grow up” is the key to this problem.
All couples have disagreements, lose their temper every so often, feel like they want to quit in the relationship and move on.
When we are young, love can be so magical or hurt to the very core of a person’s being and they feel like their life is over.
It is because of inexperience and, in youth one is learning.
Every heartbreak or every slight from another person you love helps you to become stronger and is a learning path as to what you really do want in a lifelong partner.
It ‘preps’ you for that one true love that I can promise you will meet in the future.
It’s a tough road sometimes, but we all have our disappointments and lost loves, but manage to live and forge on.
You will realize the guys or girls you ‘thought’ you loved really wasn’t love at all.

Love conquers everything, but does it?

We all know the saying 'Love conquers everything.'

But I've come to the realisation that it is false.
There is so much damage love can take.

After all the lying and all the pain.
Trust is demolished what's there to hold two people together.. Nothing

Don't say I'm worng.
Because in this situation I'm right.

Your feeling's won't change.
Mine haven't.
My heart is stilll their's.
I'm still completely and utterly in love with them.

It's easier to fall in love than to fall out of it..

This time it's goodbye.
Not see you later.
The relationship is done, it's finished.
But I still wish I could hold you in my arms and call you mine.

You have no idea the effect you have on me.

I have to force my heart to slow down.
I have to think before I speak
I have to not stutter
I have to watch where I walk.
I have to try not get lost in your eyes.
I have to not blush
I have to smile less so I don't look like a seed
I have to concentrate on how to breathe
I have to even remember how to breathe.

You make me forget all the things that cause pain and suffering
You make remember everything that makes people smile like idiots.
You are the light at the end of the tunnel.

I love you

Ten things for twenty10

I think it's time to tell the limited amount of people who read this blog,
something's about me, personally.
So people know I'm normal too.
"Pfft, yeah normal"


Here is 10 things you might not know about me.

1. I'm 2cm off being scientifically being called a midget
2. I'm considered a young adult.
3. I love science.
4. I'm getting my lip pierced at the end of this year.
5. I'm dying the tips of my hair blue after school ends.
6. I want a tattoo dedicated to my little sister who passed away
7. My favourite band's are All Time Low and The Maine
8. My two favourite male singer's in the world are Alexander William Gaskarth and John Cornelius O'Callaghan
9. I have my licence
10. I'm in love with a girl :)

Why? - Secondhand Serenade

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me. 

Timing.

"This fragile game it’s like a train that’s headed nowhere. It never stops and I can’t see the exit sign." 

- "Inside of you" - The Maine

I knew how it was going to end.
I should have been ready.
But the news was something I wish I never knew
I shouldn't have asked.
I should have left it.

But no I had to be selfish and open my mouth. 
Now I have to live with these thoughts.
If I never asked I wouldn't have to try and forget.
 
The anger inside me will just keep building.
If I never asked it wouldn't be there


Until the day the the lid blows off.
And the anger pours out.
A sea of fury.
If I never asked it won't happen.


The lesson is:
"Know when the time is right to shut your mouth and stop asking questions."
 

Torn in two.

Would it be fair to assume,

When someone walks out of your life then they will stay out of it?

This is what I assumed.

I let everything lasting memory and feeling attached to him go.

My best friend. My everything.

Even if he were a huge part of my life

I had to let everything go for my own sake.

With time,

Everything fell back into place.

Everything was getting better.

Life was back to "normal"

"Whatever normal is.. My normal is WAY different to your normal."

That's because you're not real!

But yes.

Things were settling down

And I realised I had someone amazing right in front of my eyes.

So you could say things were inches from perfect.

Then he came back.

"I love you"

Where the last words he said to me.

The first after all this time apart was also

"I love you"

And so,

Like water breaking a flood gate.

The memories and feelings rushed back.

Emotions flying everywhere.

Instantly I was wrapped around his finger all over again.

Thing almost went straight back to where they were.

But there is the one person I love more than anything.

In which, I can't and won't give them up for any one or thing.

I fought so hard for them I cannot throw it away.

So now I am torn in two.

I am confused.

The only thing I seem to be thinking about right now

Is..

"Case 1 or 2? Person 1 or 2?"

Um, person number 2!

The question's running through my head:

Where are you know?

How much have you drunk?

What are you doing?

Are you okay?

And that's not even a quarter of them.

I can tell who I care about more.

I have no nails left to bite.

I'm worrying and there is still an hour to go.

But there is 8hours, even more till I get to talk to you.

I don't know what's happening.

I would give anything to be there.

I don't know what to do.

Insanity.

My favourite memory, is when I met you.
My favourite sound is your soothing voice.
My favourite colour is your eyes, that beautiful shade of blue.
My favourite place to be is by your side.
My favourite sight is you
My favourite feeling is your hand intertwined with mine
My favourite thought is all about you


I love your smile,
I love your laugh,
I love your sense of humour
I love the way you blush
I love the way you make me  feel.

I think I just love you.
I think you are my favourite person to walk this earth.

You are everything I ask for, and a little bit more.
I can't get you out of my head. My every thought involves you.
I think I'm going crazy. But mainly crazy over you.