Making Amends.

Isn't he yummy?

I think so!

Jared Leto is the hotter less famous Brad Pitt

HA HA. I love him and 30 Seconds To Mars!

"Keep it in your pants."

Recently I've had an epiphany.

"A WHAT? Are you on drugs? Who taught you to say that? I will kill them"

I don't want to die hating people who deserve another chance.

Or tried really hard to get forgiveness.

"You don't deserve forgiveness

You don't deserve anyone to forget what you did

You don't deserve to smile after what happened

You don't deserve happiness.

But neither do I.

So who am I to keep them away from you?"

There is a girl I mention in a recent blog.

That I have become acquaintances with again.

She told me how sorry she was, how she wishes she could take it all back.

She was hurting and still was.

Who am I to prolong this hurt and pain?

So I got off my high horse and I "Forgave and Forgot."

I don't usually do it.

But I will start.

I also told that boy, I'm not angry anymore.

So he feels he doesn't have that weight on his shoulders

Even though he didn't reply..

Arse..

But from now on I want to mend those relationships that deserve to mended.

If they have a good reason, or are genuinely sorry

Then I guess they deserve forgiveness

An excuse like I don't want him to be happier with you than me

Is a shit and selfish excuse truthfully.

Where did you pull that out of? Your arse.

Because it sounds like utter shit.

I will forgive those who tried and they were hurt.

I will even try to become good mates again.

But like I said a broken vase just isn't the same.

"Here we go about the damn vase again"

Oh shut up you.

I just mentioned it.

I got some encouraging words from a friend:

"If you want to go out with a dickhead I will back you the whole way but if he hurts you I will kill him"

Best advice along side:

"If you do it again your arse is grass"

That made me laugh

Genius she is for coming up with that, it's direct and straight to the point.

No fluffing about. LOVE IT

I'm thinking of writing a story

A werewolf, falling for a vampire

And no the vampires to not sparkle in sunlight.

They will be the classic vampires, the ones that burn!

I will be in the werewolf's point of view.

There will be an epic fight scene too where they both try to kill each other because its written in there DNA to.

Mortal enemies..

Like the Japanese and whales

Like cats and dogs

Ponder this:

If we all die in the end why do we live?

And try skipping when your angry, are you angry afterwards??

Have an

Inside out

Upside Down

Diagonally spun

Night/day

"Dont pee in pools some go purple"

Meant to be Bestfriends, Sorries, Goodbyes, Fuck ups, Bitches.

It has come to an end of Yr 11 feels like yesterday I just started yr 11
how fast it has gone
"Wow end of yr 11 and you still have the brain of a dead fish..."
Yes thank you for that insight..you're such a whore.

Well I've had a few adventures this year.
But I seem to only remember the bad..
Guess that's saying something

Well in short it started of pretty great.

I had my eyes on this awesome guy..
He was my world.
We had known each other for YEARS
About a 4th way through the year
Finally the 6 words I've wanted to come out of his mouth did.
Even if it was by text.
It still counted better than nothing.

Then she came.

This person when we first met was amazing
She was someone I could tell anything.
I would pour my heart out to her.
All the time. I thought she cared
Well i was proved wrong in so many ways.
This girl was my best friend,well meant to be
Then she started the flirting.
Guess who it was with.
Yeah my boyfriend.

Fuck.

At first it was just some mate having some fun.
They were pretty good mates so I let it slide.
Then came the cuddles.
I still let that go.
Then one action turned it upside down..

I was waiting for him to come to school.
I'd been missing him so much.
He finally made it.
Walking towards me like a God that just saved a life.
Little did I know he was about to plunge mine into eternal damnation.

He saw me as he was about to walk to me
Something catches his eye.
It was her
He walks off in the other direction smiling like he was in love.
That pushed me off the edge.

Few days later
I confronted him "Do you like her?"
"I dunno" is what he said.
I so wished it was something so much more assuring but it was I dunno
I told him we need to go on a break to sort things out
Then we went our separate ways.

I was breaking inside I just let the love of my life walk out.
Then being the coward he was.
He texted me after school,
Told me we shouldn't go out anymore.
Then said he loved me.
I thought it was so unfair
How can you break up with someone then tell them you love them.
I started to blame myself. But my friends showed me the light it wasn't me
It was them.
Both of them.
But, I let it go after a week of crying and ice cream

I was starting to get over it all.
We were still mates at that point.
Then I went to go and see my best friend.
I found out after me and my boyfriend broke up
She broke up with hers.
I wondered why and well I found out.

My other friend came up to me
She looked worried.
I asked her whats up?
She replied "Are you angry at her for going out with him?"
"Who's him and her? Are you mental?"
Well my ex and best friend.
Gawd

Thats when my whole word came crashing down.
I felt my heart rip in a million shreds
I was numb after that.
I had no emotions that day.
I went on with the day as if nothing mattered.
I wanted that day to be over.

When it was I crawled up in my bed
I cried for weeks everynight
Having to see my those two flirting, holding hands.
I had to face the fact, the two people I loved with my entire heart
Turned around and ripped it out of my chest and legged it.

Thats was the worst moment of the year so far..
Then came the girl wish never came.
I dont like to elaborate on this.
But i had an univited guest.
She came she left and fucked up everything.

This was the cause of one of the worst fights in my life.
I almost died.
It started off with me and a best friend talking about breaking trust.
We broke each others.
And well then things turned upside down.

We fought told each other we didnt care..
That's the short verson.
I was not good.
It was so upsetting.
We figured it out we said our sorries.
I wish I was back the way it used to be..
I really do
But theres still that feeling in the back of your head
That still thinks about those things that were said.

I could go on forever about the bad but onto some good.
I've realised I have rekindled a flame that I used to have for this guy.
I liked ages ago.
When he first came to geraldton
But he told me he wants to be mates.
So I let that fly away

But ever scince one road trip.
I cant stop thinking.
He's always there wandering in my mind
Best days are when you go to the beach and he takes off his shirt.
And wow I think it became clear to alot of people that I like him

Gosh it wasnt obvious haha
Well I got my cuddle

But
He just wants to be friend he told me.
I'm not hurt by this.
I will move on.
I'm just glad he's my friend and nothing less...

This was or is 2009..
Hope there are more adventures to come


Have an
Inside out
Upside down
Diagonally Spun
Day!!!

"You need to lighten up im getting headaches listening to this crap"
"Catchya Bruh"

Vampire Diaries & Just Exes?

Stefan, Elana, Damon

I recently discovered another American TV show. And yes VAMPIRES is the similarity.

This one is more like a vampire Gossip Girl.

And less fleshyness

Its the SEX

"Yes I must say I do agree"

Because everyone cares..

Today in homeroom I heard the most ABSURD thing in history..

Well MY history

My friend told me one of her friends went out with EX boyfriend.

They had kinda recently broken up.

Then I heard this comment:

"It was JUST her ex"

Wow.

I think this is the one think that enraged me for the entire day.

That and my stubborn teacher.

"Damn teachers. My techer is a cow. Literally"
Right..

Yes well I think it was a load of bull shit.
I'm sure there is one guy/girl may it be an ex or past crush.
That still has your heart.
It'd crush you if you saw them kissing someone else.

It'd be alright if you knew you friend had gotten over him/her
Maybe gotten another boy/girlfriend
But if you never asked?

I've been in this situation. I told my "friend" that said the just exes thing.
See how much she cares?
Should've just told me.
Its JUST your ex.
May aswell have told me to shut up and get over it.
Such a friend you are.

Exes are not just exes.
They maybe 1st loves,
1st kisses
1st time
Or
The best Ex you ever had.
So no exes aren't just exes.

The few who read this blog.
Whatch what you say.
Do be an ignorant bitch and say stuff others are.
Think how it may affect your friends.

Have an

Inside out

Upside down

Diagonally spun

Night!

xxxx

"Go on a diet, you need to die then eat T"